Nobody is having the best time right now. The cost of lockdown crisis is beginning to take its toll on us. I do worry about it and how it is going to get worse. We have gone from being comfortable to not all that comfortable already and need to make some changes. That's okay, we are adaptable. What really upsets me every day is that we, and so many other people knew this would happen. objected to lockdowns and the so called covid response, tried to get people to see how stupid, pointless and damaging it all was, and were just, and still are, shouted down for our views. Lost friends. 

We couldn't tolerate the lockdowns, they really ruined things for us. In a way freed us because we were forced to see the cracks in our lives that were already there. We sold our house, chucked away the dream because it became a symbol of loneliness. I think a lot of people seemed to enjoy it though. Said as much. Said that they didn't like socialising anyway so this got them off the hook. Didn't like their jobs anyway so it was a blessing to have to stay at home. Liked wearing masks because people didn't talk to them at much. Just stay at home, watching telly and getting fatter. Get jabbed. Comply. How bad were they feeling before if this life was better? But still I do blame people, even people i know and love very much, and now we are all lying in the bed they made.