An observation

 Currently I am writing this entirely to myself as I have made this blog private temporarily, after noticing an alarming number of daily views. I don't know who or why anyone would have so much interest in this blog suddenly, but after writing into the void for so long, and the internet being such a creepy, intrusive place, I wasn't keen. 

My observation is to do with spending money being habit rather than instinctive, which I had assumed it probably was - the natural desire to stockpile, or to feather one's nest. I have only been practicing 'not buying', reasonably strictly, for two months since quitting my job. Obviously knowing what I know now I would have started that one long ago, but there we are!

For my birthday I was given an amazon voucher from a family friend. We also have another one due to come to us for sticking with our internet provider. Currently I am doing my very best not to shop online, as I just feel more and more that that is directly destroying the world I want to live in, but having said that, I am glad to have them, and sooner or later there will be something I want or need. 

Particularly for the birthday voucher I thought, why not have a look through my amazon wishlist and pick one thing as a birthday present. There are many lovely things on there, mainly books about all sorts of interesting subjects. And yet there is nothing I want. I just feel more and more totally bogged down by stuff, and like I already have a life's worth. And like the stuff, I feel way overstimulated by media also, and like my brain can't be doing with more stories, or more facts about stuff. 

So I will do as I said, I will wait until there is something we really need. It'll keep. And it's pretty nice not to be wanting for anything. One of few happy thoughts at the moment.