It's probably not a great mindset, but I often think back to 2017-2020 as a really golden time in my life. After moving to Cwmgors, and before all of the lockdowns etc. I had Ivy, and then I had Hazel, and I had the garden and my beautiful little house and I was happy. Jobs to get done, things to work out, not much money but lots of hard graft. It's sometimes hard to pin point what has changed between then and now. A lot of big things obviously, things that have affected all of us. We moved of course. And since the move there's been a definite waning in my mojo. My house, I don't think, has ever been tidy since moving. I can put this down to one thing and another, but now, both girls are in school, and I am without a job, I have no excuse for this. I just seem to have lost my domestic drive.
I don't know if I'm looking back through rose tinted glasses, but I remember it as a time where, although I wasn't fulfilled socially, I was full of creativity, optimism and drive. Where did it go?
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