I'm tired of being uncomfortable. I wonder now if I've ever in my life expected to be comfortable. When I was fit and strong when the girls were little I felt comfortable in some ways, but still wore uncomfortable clothes a great deal of the time. Now I'm overweight and still wear largely uncomfortable clothes.
It seems when I declare a no-spend week/month/period that immediately curses my intentions and I whip out the debit card. This time has been no different - I got home from a morning errand and thought I'm sick of having several pairs of not quite comfortable shoes, and went out to mountain warehouse and bought one pair of very generic grey trainers. And I rather think that I would like all of my clothes to be generic and grey to be honest. After years, a lifetime, of essentially being a show-off, I have gained a tiny bit of wisdom and realised that it really doesn't matter if people think you look interesting/attractive/artsy/slim/insert adjective here. It matters that you are warm, clean and comfortable.
If I had the money, which I don't at the moment, I think I would happily start again. Get rid of all of my clothes, save the basics like leggings and t-shirts, and buy one plain dress, one plain jumper and one plain cardigan, maybe even -horror- one pair of jeans, and be done with it. I would very much like to stop going around advertising things. Either other companies with their logos, or advertising myself - look at me, I've been to art school, I can sew, I can knit, aren't I fantastic? Ugh.
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